To an Old Friend

I'm writing this in the hopes that you might sometime see it, and maybe read it through. I doubt that'll happen though. If anything, it'll probably be ignored and life will go on. It's not like I'm mailing you my ear or something like that; I doubt you would find much use or interest in it anyway.

I used to think that maybe there was something else, something that could give shelter to both of us together. I see now that it was nothing but a merry delusion I drowned myself in through an attempt to run away from what I am. Besides, you've probably already found your solace.

I wonder if you've ever heard of the Hedgehog's Dilemma. I wouldn't be surprised either way, but I'll say it here just in case you don't know it. Hedgehogs trying to share warmth come close together, but must remain apart as they cannot avoid pricking each other with their spines.

Maybe, if that was us, this would be that distance. A message every once in a while, maybe a call every now and again. With the way things are, I wouldn't be able to leave a message from you unacknowledged, yet that has to stop sometime. Maybe now is that time.

I won't block you. That's a step I'm unwilling to take, and hope I never have to. Instead I'll just leave it like this, and maybe I'll be able to leave you behind.

Goodbye.